A letter to you

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I hope you have been doing well.
Like I’ve always hoped you have been.

Two years ago today,
We were crying our eyes out because you wanted to break up with me.
After a teary battle,
you decided not to give me up.
I decided to never leave you.
You promised you would never abandon me.
I promised I would never give up on you.

And I never did.

I still love you.
I admit,
I still do.
I still miss your company.
Your hugs and kisses.
Your smell.
Your presence right beside me.

Every day I’d wonder;
How’d you do.
How was school?
Was there anything I could do to make you feel better?

And every day I’d flip through mental copies of our memories.
What we did together.
What we laughed at,
what we spoke and debated,
what we ate together.

Every now and then,
I’d break down from losing you.
Every time I miss you,
I lose you all over again.
I can’t help it.
I still do.

The only thing I could do,
is leave.
And pray that some day,
it would dawn on you,
the value of what I did for you.

I gave up everything for you.

My dreams.

I gave up my time.
I never needed to work,
but you wanted a penthouse.

I turned into nothing,
for you.
You claimed I was dominating you.

I went through a life-threatening surgery,
for you.
Because I was too fat.

I became your sex slave,
for you.

I became your tool.

“I like weak-weak girls.”
I remembered you saying.

So I turned weak.
I didn’t care what changes meant to me as long as I can make you happy.

I turned worthless.
So worthless you’d prefer a prostitute than me.

I turned depressed.
Depressed that a prostitute is better than me.

I gave up my rights.
Gave up fighting for what a person should fight for.

I lied to myself.
I never listened to my instincts just to keep trusting your lies that I kept uncovering.

But you still left me.

I decided to change.
Decided to upgrade myself into a prostitute so that you would take another look at me.

I didn’t do it,
after all.

How could I have done it,
when after you have hacked and slashed at my dying spirit and still asked me to fuck off?
I was bathing in my sorrow.
Blood seething through my teeth.
Too crippled to even crawl.
Too devastated that the one I’d take a bullet for is the one behind the trigger.
You left me when I needed you the most.

“Nights <3”
You sent that to somebody you never knew for more than three days.
You told me it's gay to be sending "<3" so I never asked you to be sweet-texting me.
I was blamed for being insecure.

"I would never fall for people this young one la please la"
Then you told me you had fallen for one of them.
I was blamed for never keeping to my words.

"I'll stay single forever"
"Who can bear being single forever?"
I was blamed for being ironic.

"I don't want to commit to a relationship"
You chased her like crazy.

"I go look for prostitute also none of your business"
I was nothing more than that.

I still want you after all of that,
I admit.
After all you have dealt me with.
Because it's the mind that gets angry but the heart that still cares.
Because not loving you is not within my means.
Many times even,
I've reached the stage of cutting myself,
but then again stopped before I would worry my family.

I am thankful for those who were there.
Who have tried to join me on my journey but gave up trying to change the direction I was heading.
Who have stood themselves in my shoes and were empathetic.
Who have been convincing me that I deserve better.

I don't.
I am worse than a prostitute.

I am nothing more than nothing.

I understand what you meant when you said I'm a horrible person.

I don't deserve to be alive.

Thank you for showing me.
How worthless I truly am.
To be losing you to somebody who never deserved you.
To be losing my value to a prostitute.
To be losing respect to someone who I loved the most.
To be losing trust in everyone.

This time,
I'll keep to my words.
I'll stay single forever.

I love you.

Hilariously yours.

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Hi all!
Apparently this is my 800th post -pops confetti-

Sorry for the lack of updates.
Life’s been hectic.
Busy and whatnot,
Finally decided on a permanent Monday off which my boss initially offered.
Otherwise I think I’d die haha!

It’s surprising how many places I write in,
Mainly in my -cough- new iPhone -cough-
Not exactly new being a secondhand set and all,
But well it’s good.
Better than my 3GS of course.
A 4S with 64gb,
I can write until I cry.

Thankfully for my boss’s phone line,
I have free 3G.
Which also explains why I now prefer to talk to people on LINE and Facebook now.

Back to topic,
Work has been crazy.
And yes,
I’ve decided to take up an agent license.
And there’re a lot of milestones I have to conquer.

Good news and bad news,
I’ve people supporting me and people who,
of course,
are giving up on me.
I will persevere though this ordeal,
No matter what it takes.
This has always been my belief and spirit,
and nobody can change that.
I will achieve my dream.

I hereby sincerely thank all that have been supporting me throughout my hardship during the darkest of my times,
those who gave up on me and those who never did.
I would like all of you to know that none of your efforts are wasted.
Every single word expressed has been and will always be carved deep into my heart and mind.

You guys know who you are.

Peace out.


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Hi guise .
Long time no see I guess .

Just some stuff I have to blab about ,
let it off my chest whatsoever .

To me ,
You have always been my hero .
The one who was there for me ,
When I need you .
It proved and moved me a lot ,
When I quarreled with my mum the other time ,
And I left my phone in the room .
You were on the other end .
I came back 40 minutes later ,
And you were still there .

I knew ,
You were the one I can always count on .

I didn’t know how to express my gratitude .
I didn’t know what to say .
I was at a loss for words ;
I was really touched .
And thankful that my decision wasn’t wrong .

Now ,
I don’t know what to say .
Because I thought my hero could do better ,
Because I didn’t realise sending me to the bus stop could cost him a limb ,
I kept asking for more .
I wasn’t satisfied .
And I got sad .
Angry .
And suspicious to whether he truly loved me .

I took a step back .
I see now that he really did .
I took him as what he appeared to me :
Superhuman .
But I forgot ,
Heroes need to rest too .

I’m sorry for hurting you .
I truly am .


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Hi guise .
Long time no update .

Just some rants I have to go through .

First of all ,
I guess .
No matter how much I’d hate to admit it ,
We’re done .
Over .

I won’t be able to love another guy like how I loved you .

Secondly ,
Yes .
I loved you too much .
I admit .

Thirdly ,
I really wished we could last forever .
Although everyone around me asked me not to be stupid and just let you go ,
I still held on .
I still wanted us to work out .
Cause we loved with our might .
But we made mistakes .
Thus we’re this way now .

It’s too late ,
Like you said .
And I really believe everything you said .
But you don’t know what I know …

I’m moving on ,
Really .
But I need your help .
Really …


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What should I say ?
I feel so maligned ,
So miserable .
So sad that all of the efforts I made to change myself into the dream girl you want has not been recognized .
You sleep in the past ,
You insisted I’ve not changed .
You left .

What can I say ?
For you to realise what I’ve done ?
More for the errors I’ve made ?
I could never love anyone more than I loved you .

But things changed .
I see it now .
I see now that it has been a trap since that day .
That you have been wanting to leave since the death-threat .
No matter what ,
You wanted out .

And because I was being sensitive ,
I was being insecure .
I was being who I’m supposed to be :
a girl .

You hated me being so manly ,
yet you were so in love with me .
Once I started turning girly ,
you want to leave me .

What can I say ?

Post School

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Okay first blog post since revival of my computer .

Graduation ceremony today ,
had some fun .
Can’t really bear to leave actually ,
but meh .
Good while it lasted !

Probably go down to visit them some day .
/rubs hands


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Sup people .
Long time no update cause both my desktop and laptop decided to die on me on New Year’s .
HAPPY 2013 MY ASS >_>

Well aside from the fact that I have to throw up a lot of money on getting my own computers back ,
things have been fun so far during the first two weeks of 2013 .
Not bad at all .

Did another face up for Jin ,
fiercer cause of the fucken green eyes ,
gonna make him a little more towards stern instead IF the brown eyes manage to reach me .

7th week jobless due to the house ,
80% done I should say .
Next week the contractor’s a-comin’ .

Pretty much good news from old bro ATJK ,
who managed to clinch the job I introduced to him .
Congrats bro !!!

And well recently since the year started I’ve been chasing up on KO.One II .
KO series are another part of my life just like how the Pokeymans are faring .
Speaking of which ,
I need to save up for a 3DS .
XY are releasing October so well I guess a pretty nice time frame .
IF I stay in my current job of course .

And yes ,
I’ll be starting work week after next ,
So …
Goodbye freedom ):

Holy Night

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I feel so tired .
So drained .
Probably due to all these packing projects I’ve been sleeping in late .
And my body is lethargic .
Nevertheless I still push myself to the extreme .

I wonder the day I falter .

Anyways ,
little Jin is home .
No photos of him yet as I am too busy and lazy at the same time .
Did his face up in the midst of packing up ,
So took a long long day .
Pretty much happy with it other than the brows cause MY SHARPENER DECIDED TO RETIRE .

Gah .
Photos up when I’m free or something .
Hahaha .

Merry X’mas ;
from the resin band (Rawk) and I .

Dooms Day

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Or rather ,
Post Dooms Day .

Well ,
maybe the world has indeed ended and some people from the future came back to save us all but we never knew .
HAHAHAHAHA what rubbish ,
funny how I think when I’m so horrendously tired .

And I’m not even exaggerating .

Anyways ,
Happy Dooms Day everyone .

People come and go, but one day one will stay.

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But there’s just some I can’t take not being in my life …
Regardless of what happened .

Still ,
all the best …


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What is going on ?
I have no idea anymore …

Let’s just say that ,
the truth does come to light ,
whether it’s ideal or not …

Let’s just say that ,
someday you’ll realise ,
everyone’s trying to protect you might come to naught …

Let’s just say that ,
you are a very important being in my life ,
and I wish the best for you whether I can be there or not …

And only memories will remain .

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Yesterday our chapter in the Hair course ended .
Sweet sour bitter and spiciness .
When we are finally free ,
we miss the bars that hold us back .



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How could you keep assuming every single thing I’ve said as what you’ve thought they are ?
And yet you don’t even believe me when I try to clear up your misunderstanding .
I’m not even complaining about you .
I’m working towards what I want all by myself .
And yet you take it all upon you .
And then now it’s my fault .

Look ,
I really already love you for who you are .
You keep misunderstanding everything .
All by yourself .
And you are so paranoid .
And you overthink .
And then you jump to conclusions and don’t even bother to ask .
And when I explain to you ,
you don’t believe me .

Maybe you can try putting yourself in my shoes .


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Finally downloaded B2W2 .
Sadly cannot be loaded on my r4sdhc .
At least my akaio can play it …

The game doesn’t really seem very exciting anyway >_>

Anyways this is the excitement I spoke of in one of the previous posts .
Little Reiko and Reito are home !
Finally together .
Hurrr .


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How am I supposed to feel ?

Same Old

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So damn fucking pissed .
Who’s this new person to replace me ?
Who the fuck do you think you are ?
Who are you to ruin everything I’ve placed in order ?

I’m sorry I’m no longer the me you used to know .

Adrenaline meets Anxiety

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I can’t wait for October .

You’ll know why .
Soon enough .
Like ,


Limit Break

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I am this much .
Away from snapping at you .

Yes I love you ,
but really .
Don’t make use of me and my love .

I guess it’s just that hard to find someone who dotes you back .
Maybe ,
if I was prettier .
Sexier .
Sluttier .
Flirtier .
Maybe ,
it’d be a whole lot easier .

I know you’ve done a lot for me .
Haven’t I done a lot too ?
I gave you freedom ,
personal space .
You return the favour by lecturing me on everything I do .

I don’t need instructions on how to live my life .
That’s further down the line than the last thing I need .

A sense of humour

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is needed armour .

Joy in one’s heart and some laughter on one’s lips is a sign that the person down deep has a pretty good grasp of life.

It doesn’t really matter in the long run.

Or does it?


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Yes .
Must thank someone .
For rekindling my love for Shaman King .

Buying the full set tomorrow .

Looks like I’ve to clear loads of stuff !

If not no space already .


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So I went to workplace and grabbed my stuff before leaving for home .
Spoke to the branch manager ,
apparently according to her tone and choice of words she doesn’t plan on hiring (at least) me .

Oh well ,
fuck it I guess .
I’ve tried hard ,
very hard .
Fought for this job ;
to clear my name ;
and spent many monies on sustaining it .

What’s not meant to be mine will not be mine after all .
Does not matter how the others feel about my work progress ,
what matters is only the Dowager’s .

And Clovy ,
a very nice and humourous girl I met during my journey in IA .
She was “fired” a few weeks back and it was her last day two days ago .
I totally agree with you ,
Clovy ,
regarding what’s going on here …
I’m sure we deserve better .
Definitely .

And I will fight for it .


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Sometimes ,
I realise I spend way too over my budget .
Many times actually .

Not just money ,
but time as well .

How I wish I can split myself into ten thousand Nonos .

Monday the 13th

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Anyways life’s not been a bed of roses .
Everything sucks ,
everything’s going wrong .

But recently everything’s smoothing itself out ,
hopefully this will last …

Ten past

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It’s been about ten days back to school (inclusive of Wella) .
So far not enough sleep everyday ,
and a stupid migraine has been haunting me every now and then .
I hope it’s not because of my growing teeth .

Side track ,
I’ve not been posting in a while .
So updates .

Just bought a Pokemon Pinball R&S off the internet .
Hope it arrives quick .

So yea .
I finally have Paypal .
Thanks Dad for sacrificing your card !
Don’t worry ,
I won’t spam it .

Gonna go back to gaming for a while till my migraine subsides .

Viral Vacation

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Just my luck seriously .
Down with a stupid viral infection .
Don’t know which faggot passed to me .
Gary-Baby‘s sick as well .
Both of us are running fever lol .
But overall his symptoms are slightly different from mine .

Anyways .
Was at work for an hour and then couldn’t take it so took MC .
Doctor at polyclinic said I was not running a fever .
Well I was freezing cold and my pee was fucken warm so I thought maybe I thought too much .

Didn’t get better after spamming fedac and panadol in the late afternoon so went to Doctor Tan .
He said I’m still running a fever (LOLWHUT) .
Oh well .
Humourous doctor indeed .
Said he prescribed me magic pills LOL .
Hopefully they work wonders .

Still ,
just my luck .
Competition audition is on Friday .

Bitter Pink

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Although it was not easy to get this little thing tugging at my heart ,
the ones stopping me were connected to my heart as well .

All thanks go to my dearest Gary-Baby .
Thank you Dearest ,
from the very bottomest of my heart .

I love you .

Picture Perfect

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The “thing” happening in school has drawn to a close (I hope !) .
It all boils down to the matter of miscommunication .
Seems like I really should stop helping friends who are not close enough .
As they will never appreciate it .

Malignity happens when someone is “buey song” with you .
Cause all that person wants is for the world to crash down on you .
Well as the saying goes :
Karma’s a bitch ,
Only if you are .

Everyone thinks I’m always full of excuses .
I guess it’s because they’re not me .
Oh well .

What’s over is over ,
I’ll handpick my friends in future .

Thanks for the valuable lesson .


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Dearest GaryBaby ,

We’ve been through a year .
It’s been a hectic year .


So much tears and anger .
However we’re rewarded with understanding .

Since we couldn’t celebrate this year ,
let’s make it a blast next year (:


Love always ,


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It’s the first time I’ve had such a serious leg injury ;
a hurt tendon in the right leg for 8 weeks (and still hurt) ,
right foot bandaged for 5 days ,
limped/staggered/hobbled for 3 to 4 weeks .
I can finally walk normally these few days ,
although it still hurts every now and then .

And comes the news you want to terminate me
cause you think I’m fucking faking it .

Come and clarify with me !
Why go to my teacher ?
Defame me ?
What the fuck seriously .

I worked so hard to get a place in this job .
So what if I smoke ?
Don’t like then don’t make such a thing as “Smoke Break” !
Simple what !

Tell you I’m injured I cannot work .
You don’t believe .
Then what to do ?
You also don’t have X-Ray vision what !
You can’t even see my foot how you want to see my fucking tendon ?!

Even if I die also not your fucking problem .

15 Things You Should Give Up To Be Happy

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Here is a list of 15 things which, if you give up on them, will make your life a lot easier and much, much happier. We hold on to so many things that cause us a great deal of pain, stress and suffering – and instead of letting them all go, instead of allowing ourselves to be stress free and happy – we cling on to them. Not anymore. Starting today we will give up on all those things that no longer serve us, and we will embrace change. Ready? Here we go:

1. Give up your need to always be right. There are so many of us who can’t stand the idea of being wrong – wanting to always be right – even at the risk of ending great relationships or causing a great deal of stress and pain, for us and for others. It’s just not worth it. Whenever you feel the ‘urgent’ need to jump into a fight over who is right and who is wrong, ask yourself this question: “Would I rather be right, or would I rather be kind?” Wayne Dyer. What difference will that make? Is your ego really that big?

2. Give up your need for control. Be willing to give up your need to always control everything that happens to you and around you – situations, events, people, etc. Whether they are loved ones, coworkers, or just strangers you meet on the street – just allow them to be. Allow everything and everyone to be just as they are and you will see how much better will that make you feel.

“By letting it go it all gets done. The world is won by those who let it go. But when you try and try. The world is beyond winning.” Lao Tzu

3. Give up on blame. Give up on your need to blame others for what you have or don’t have, for what you feel or don’t feel. Stop giving your powers away and start taking responsibility for your life.

4. Give up your self-defeating self-talk. Oh my. How many people are hurting themselves because of their negative, polluted and repetitive self-defeating mindset? Don’t believe everything that your mind is telling you – especially if it’s negative and self-defeating. You are better than that.

“The mind is a superb instrument if used rightly. Used wrongly, however, it becomes very destructive.” Eckhart Tolle

5. Give up your limiting beliefs about what you can or cannot do, about what is possible or impossible. From now on, you are no longer going to allow your limiting beliefs to keep you stuck in the wrong place. Spread your wings and fly!

“A belief is not an idea held by the mind, it is an idea that holds the mind” Elly Roselle

6. Give up complaining. Give up your constant need to complain about those many, many, maaany things – people, situations, events that make you unhappy, sad and depressed. Nobody can make you unhappy, no situation can make you sad or miserable unless you allow it to. It’s not the situation that triggers those feelings in you, but how you choose to look at it. Never underestimate the power of positive thinking.

7. Give up the luxury of criticism. Give up your need to criticize things, events or people that are different than you. We are all different, yet we are all the same. We all want to be happy, we all want to love and be loved and we all want to be understood. We all want something, and something is wished by us all.

8. Give up your need to impress others. Stop trying so hard to be something that you’re not just to make others like you. It doesn’t work this way. The moment you stop trying so hard to be something that you’re not, the moment you take of all your masks, the moment you accept and embrace the real you, you will find people will be drawn to you, effortlessly.

9. Give up your resistance to change. Change is good. Change will help you move from A to B. Change will help you make improvements in your life and also the lives of those around you. Follow your bliss, embrace change – don’t resist it.
“Follow your bliss and the universe will open doors for you where there were only walls” Joseph Campbell

10. Give up labels.
Stop labeling those things, people or events that you don’t understand as being weird or different and try opening your mind, little by little. Minds only work when open.
“The highest form of ignorance is when you reject something you don’t know anything about.” Wayne Dyer

11. Give up on your fears.
Fear is just an illusion, it doesn’t exist – you created it. It’s all in your mind. Correct the inside and the outside will fall into place.
“The only thing we have to fear, is fear itself.” Franklin D. Roosevelt

12. Give up your excuses.
Send them packing and tell them they’re fired. You no longer need them. A lot of times we limit ourselves because of the many excuses we use. Instead of growing and working on improving ourselves and our lives, we get stuck, lying to ourselves, using all kind of excuses – excuses that 99.9% of the time are not even real.

13. Give up the past. I know, I know. It’s hard. Especially when the past looks so much better than the present and the future looks so frightening, but you have to take into consideration the fact that the present moment is all you have and all you will ever have. The past you are now longing for – the past that you are now dreaming about – was ignored by you when it was present. Stop deluding yourself. Be present in everything you do and enjoy life. After all life is a journey not a destination. Have a clear vision for the future, prepare yourself, but always be present in the now.

14. Give up attachment. This is a concept that, for most of us is so hard to grasp and I have to tell you that it was for me too, (it still is) but it’s not something impossible. You get better and better at with time and practice. The moment you detach yourself from all things, (and that doesn’t mean you give up your love for them – because love and attachment have nothing to do with one another, attachment comes from a place of fear, while love… well, real love is pure, kind, and self less, where there is love there can’t be fear, and because of that, attachment and love cannot coexist) you become so peaceful, so tolerant, so kind, and so serene. You will get to a place where you will be able to understand all things without even trying. A state beyond words.

15. Give up living your life to other people’s expectations.
Way too many people are living a life that is not theirs to live. They live their lives according to what others think is best for them, they live their lives according to what their parents think is best for them, to what their friends, their enemies and their teachers, their government and the media think is best for them. They ignore their inner voice, that inner calling. They are so busy with pleasing everybody, with living up to other people’s expectations, that they lose control over their lives. They forget what makes them happy, what they want, what they need….and eventually they forget about themselves. You have one life – this one right now – you must live it, own it, and especially don’t let other people’s opinions distract you from your path.

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Yes .
I am crippled .
For the past month .
Seen the sinseh today ,
said my tendon injured .
Meh .

Been 21 years old for a full month ,
Doesn’t feel very different …
Well maybe cause I don’t club .
Hahahaha .

Leg ,
please recover soon .
Thanks .


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To do anything at all .

Here I am ,
fighting for our future ,
finding ways to earn money ,
so that we can lead a better life .

There you are ,
bitching about whatever there is to bitch about ,
saying stuff that hurt me ,
doing stuff that hurt us .

Is it just me ?
Am I too demanding ?
Am I childish ?

Fine .
I’ll be a serious mature whosoever .
You killed the child in Nonokeu today .
Don’t you dare complain .


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Sorry for the late post !
Been celebrating from 2nd till today haha .
Epic birthday is epic !

First of all I would like to thank everyone who has made my birthday epic .
Second of all I hoped that everyone who has made my birthday epic enjoyed the celebrations too .

Thinking Day

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It’s Thinking Day today .
And it’s exactly 10 days away from my 21st birthday .

I feel so old .


Anyways ,
sorry for not updating !
Have fallen really sick and been really busy either resting or in school .

I’ve been hired by Beijing101 and I’ll be starting work a week from now .
Yayness .
Striving hard for what I want .

Realised how much I’ve missed out during my 5 days of mc .
-le sigh-

le Feb

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Time’s passing really fast .
It’s the end of January 2012 already .

21st December will come sooner than we feel it .


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Yeah la yeah la .
Brother pulled his knee cap then ask me stay home look after him la .
Doctor ask him don’t move so much you expect me to be there for him 24/7 la .
Please la .
Doctor Hee ask me not to carry heavy stuff at all you also ask me carry right .

Didi not big enough to care for himself meh ?
He’s 16 this year lei not 6 for fuck’s sake !
So Doctor said he needs one month to recover .
Okay can .
I stay home for one month 24/7 take care of him .
You tell the teachers and my boyfriend that I’m dead .
Then magically revive one month later .

If you want people take care of him so much you take care la !
One month never work only what ,
live off my bursary la !
Tell your boss that you need to take care of your injured 6 year old son in Secondary 4 by watching Funshion every day .



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You know I really really do love you .
I’ve never complained about what you eat ,
how you look ,
etc .

I know I’m fat .
I’ve always been fat .
And most probably stay fat for the rest of my life .

I know how you hate how fat I am ,
how scarred my legs are ,
how I don’t dress up ,
how I behave .
But that’s just me .

Your words hurt .
Like they always do .



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Happy Lunar New Year everybody !
Wishing health and wealth for everyone !

First MC of the year .

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Hurray .
Down with fever first thing I woke up .
And I missed Beijing 101 career talk .

Anyways things have been fucking up these few days .
I seriously have no idea how long I can tolerate these before I go crazy .


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Yes that is the name of my new class .
And yes my class is split into two .
And yes the CA for HS1 is Miss Jean Koh .
Who is no longer Section Head (Miss Robinson is the new Section Head) ,
but the Course Manager instead .
CA for HS2 is Mr Ang .
Due to my CA being too busy ,
he will be taking us when uh ,
she’s busy .

Anyways the schedule is by the nicest I’ve seen in HFD (GDD got better ones before) .
No school on Friday !
Hopefully we’re not thrown to salons >_<

First Friday 2012

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It’s the first Friday of the year ,

Well not really ,
school is reopening for me in 3 days .
Not a very exciting weekend .

Just a little something to cheer you all up .

Oh ,
and I haven’t said my thanks for supporting me throughout the rough year in 2011 ,
thanks very much everyone !
I’ll keep updates coming in more frequently so stay tuned !

On a side note ;
Dearest love ,
Please believe in the love I have for you .
I’m doing whatever I can to convince you .
To prove you .
That I really do love you like no other .

Stay cool people .
Have a nice weekend ahead (;

1:11:11 ;

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I only want you ,
I only love you .

No matter where you are ,
what you do .
You’ll always be on my mind ,
in my heart .

You’re my life .


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2012 is here .
Happy New Year everyone .

And dearest silly boy ,
I love you .
No matter what where and when .

Anyways ,

Before you shout “LOSER” in my face ,
look into the mirror ,
and you’d see someone so cheap ,
you need to steal people’s friends .
You’d see someone so loose ,
you hang around all kind of men .
You’d see a big time slut ,
wearing like it was Stone Age .
You’d see a fucking whore ,
whose clit could feel no end .

That’s how I feel better about you bitch .


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I have no idea why people like playing MIA .
What’s the fucking point ?
Escapism from your problems ?

Come on .
Even a suicide won’t solve your problems .
Wake up your fucking idea .


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It’s just like us .
One of us is always reaching out to the other .
Haha .

Ever since you’ve gone to OJT ,
we haven’t been texting much ,
talking much ,
meeting much …

But I’m dealing well with it .

I miss you so bad .



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I almost lost you today …
I really don’t want to …

We cried and cried …
I really didn’t want you to go ,
to leave my life …

I begged and begged …
Talking about our past memories ,
how beautiful they are …

And you decided in the end ,
not to let me go …

I am officially the happiest girl .
In the whole wide world .

Happy half-year anniversary Bubby .
I love you and I’ll always do .


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Christmas event ,
total of ten days ,
nice pay ,
same job genre ,
yadda yadda .

Short hair is short .

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Stupid !
Never trim then bo daiji liao ma .
For what trim !
See la !
Now cut until so short liao la !
10cm lei Nono !!!

Meh .

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The few I’ve been observing just shows more crave for what they want .
Ambitious is a good thing I guess ,
but wanting dicks and fucks ?
Come on .
Strip yourself naked and fake drunk and you’ll have them .
You sluts are good at faking anyways .


Gratitude .

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So many people I know don’t have gratitude .
It just pisses me off so much .


Like the bitch who just got married over the weekend ?
How many people knew that it was I who introduced my as-close-as-blood brother to her ?
And caused this twist of fate ?
She should be goddamned happy she could even get married off .

And one more who couldn’t thank those around her ?
How many people knew that it was I who introduced the job to her ?
Arrogant much .

Come on bitches .
If I didn’t do all these favours to you ,
where the fuck would you be right now ?


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